Music moves me. It envelopes me whenever I hear it. I can't explain the effect it has on me in words. It brings me to tears, it stops me in my tracks, it teaches me more than a sermon ever could and it makes me move wherever I'm at. Yes, I am one of those strange people you see moving to their own beat, seen or unseen. Whenever I hear music I can't help but dance. Which I'm sure has raised some eyebrows in our Baptist Church.
Lately music has been making me close my eyes and cry silent tears. But not any kind of music, music about Jesus. About His love for me and mankind. Songs that speak of His healing touch, His grace.
I can't explain that either, I think it comes from a deep assurance that no matter what happens, He is with me. That sentence should be in flashing colours with fireworks shooting from it.
He is with me when I feel like a failure. He is with me when the dishes are piled high and I am on a campaign to rid the world of bathrooms to clean. He is with me when I can't sleep because pain that I can't bear is too great. He is with me when I scream out WHY? into the silent house. He is with me when I laugh at my Husband's impression of me saying "Just love meeeeee." He is with me when I wish friends were closer and when I rejoice that my best friend is ten minutes away! He is with me when I know it's my fault the fight started but am never the first one to say I'm sorry. He is with me when I dream about the future and our 9 children. HE IS WITH ME.
My husband always prays for God to be with so and so, and I've told him that you never have to ask that of God. It says in the Bible "And lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
Wow! The God of the Universe is with me and you always. That makes me incredibly thankful and totally embarrassed. He's seen it all. The times I gossip, lie, cheat and fight. And I'm glad. Because I can't hide anything from Him yet He loves me and is with me always.
That's enough to make me cry tears of thankfulness. What about you?
You are My Hiding Place
"You are my hiding place, you always fill my heart with songs of deliverance.
Whenever I am afraid I will trust in you.
I will trust in you.
Let the weak say I am strong
In the strength of the Lord."
Oh dearest of Rachaels in all the lands...
ReplyDeleteYou do beat all! Even Anne of Green Gables, and she is... Well, you know, she is ANNE! But you breathe spiritual life and hope into our souls through the transparent style of your musings, and I LOVE finding new posts here on "The Good Wife" :)
Thank you for being so real and honest. In the victories and failings, the climbing and the falling, the hum drum and the frantic, the blissful and the brokenhearted...
Because c'est la vie! But LIFE IN CHRIST is holy, and meaning is literally woven into all we do and say, and I love how much substance your writing has, because of Christ indwelling you, HOPE OF GLORY!
I know you're high on demand all over the world, but, could you ever have time for a Skype soon? :) I miss seeing your face, hearing your voice, and sharing music, songs, prayer, tears, and laughter with you, my bosom friend.
As long as the sun and moon shall endure--->ACTUALLY, way longer than that, since we're sistas in Christ! haha FOREVERRRR!!!
Don't stop writing, girl. Maybe your hubby will publish it into a book someday like my Hubbs did for me this Christmas :)
Hugs!